I want to share that the 1st PRRT I was so excited to go to get the treatment. The 2nd trip was OK but after I got home I was so sick. That 2nd PRRT really kicked my butt. Now, I am actually dreading going there for PRRT #3 because I know that I will be going again through the pains of a long, hard recovery.
I feel like a shadow of myself. I feel that the treatments have stripped away at my mind and my "fight" is gone. I have never felt this low during all the 4 years I have had cancer. So, why should I go through with this? It is my only hope at this point, I tell myself. It is a series of treatments. Another reason. I just don't want to go. But, I am going.
I had the worst headache/migraine of my life this weekend, Screaming for help at the urgent care. It took 90 minutes and I vomited over 30 times until I finally got to see the Dr. and got IV meds to help me. I was scared and never felt so much pain and suffering in my life. I am scared to travel and hope my primary care Dr will prescribe an injectable migraine med for me before I travel to take with me.
I am so tired and depressed. I hope and pray that I can endure this trip and treatment, because I really feel all the fight is going out of me.
Good reader, if you have it in your heart, please pray for me, send healing thoughts, imagine me well....whatever your belief system. I need help.
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